Back to... whatever this is

Seems we are expected to live now.
"How?" I must ask.
I did not plan my life without you, so I say: How am I suposed to do it right now?
If what I want, right now, I can't have.
They say: wait a few months, keep on doing what you planned. But what if?
Everything can happen, I just didn't realise that before.
My head hurts. My heart is in pain. Constantly. I'm crying inside all the time.
Hope tomorrow will be better.



Don't really believe in that.